Indian Gay Sex Story of Fun with 1st Man Crush: 7
Indian Gay Sex Story: Well I got busy in my life, studies, my movies, newspapers, articles, debates… Gosh i had so much to do, so much to learn, aspire to inspire… But the nights were painful coz it reminded me of the chinks in my armour. It is often said that no one should be able to see the chinks in Your armour; well they always came out at night.
I started realising that I had started falling for him and the idea or the realisation of it scared me coz we all know that in India the probability for a guy to be in a successful relationship with another guy is very low and I was aware of the fact that ours wouldn’t last long either but there’s always hope. I had no one to talk to about my feelings, actually I had nothing to talk to anyone and I became quiet.
I got focused and engrossed in my life and studies and i know for some I might be difficult to understand why I didn’t go and talk to him or discuss. Well I am not an egoistic but for me self-respect keeps much more importance than anything and I don’t let these emotional things affect me so badly so I try n be safe and not get too entwined in these coz I know how badly I could affect me and I don’t want that to happen bcoz I got a responsibility towards my family too and also I have learned to be pragmatic in life after few incidences.
So after few weeks one day at around 10:15 pm my fone rang and guess who it was-“Hemant”. I intially was in a dilemma that whether I should pick the call or avoid but I picked it (how typical of me… Ufff).
Me – :Hi.
He:-Hey! Wssup… Long time huh..
Me:-Just as well.. How r u?
He:- M gud! U hven’t called or messaged in these days.
Me:- Yeah! I guess we both Just got lil busy.
He:-No way! You got busy…Ya ya ok I got busy lil…
Me:-So have your feelings changed now? Fee weeks ago u were in love or was it in thr heat of the moment.
He:-(trying to dodge the question but when i insisted he finally replied) well I got scared, confused about all this. I don’t want people to know about this.
Me:- Ok but have I ever asked for a commitment or behaved in a clichéd partner ever who is seeking commitment publicly. Are you ashamed of us?
He:- No its not that… Lets give us some time and see…. Hey me and some friends are planning for a trip! What’s ur scene.
Me:- I would hve loved to but I am going with my family out of town for few days.
He:- oh! For how many days.?
Me-: Umm.. For 10 days
He:- Will u miss me?
I was confused as to what to answer him… I was contemplating something in my mind though… We had so much conversations, moments on phone that I had started falling for him. In those moments I was a different person, we talked so much and whatever we talked, we wouldn’t hve talked in person. I was going through so much in my mind. I wanted to say…..
“Mai miss karoonga? Miss toh shayad ek chota lafz hai inn ehsaassaat ke liye jo mai tumhaare liye rakhne laga hoon. Aur ab mai apne aap se darne laga hoon. Kisi se mohabbat insaan ko bahut kamzor kar deti hai..bahut bebas, majboor, mahkoom..aur mujhe in teenon cheezon se nafrat hai..lekin uske bawajood tum meri zindagi ka markaz bante jaa rahe hoo..
Tum mujhse poochte hoo ke mujhe tumhaari kya baat achchi lagti hai? Main tumse ye kaise kahoon ki mujhe tumhari kaunsi baat achchi nahi lagti.. Apne ird gird tumhara ghoomna..mere wajood se na hatne wali tumhari gehri bolti nazrein..tumhari har waqt ki tawajjo..tumhara jaan chidakne wala har andaaz..Par mai yeh sab tumko kabhi nahi bataaoonga, tumhaare har vaade par hassoonga.
Tumhaari har baat ka mazaaq udaauga… Tum mujhe sangemarmar samajhte hoo, toh samajhte raho..mai tumhaare saamne reth ki deewar nahi ban sakta..mujhe toot jaane se khauf aata hai..”
(after going through all these emotions, i said)
Me:- No, its only 10 days & we haven’t talked for so long or met so I think I’ll manage.
I wasn’t in that state of mind to talk more as I was getting emotional but didn’t wanna show him. I can’t, I just can’t show my raw side to him bcoz that way I m giving him the power over me to make or break me emotionally and I don’t think you should give anyone that power, I feel if you do that, you are burdening that person with that responsibility and at some point that person will fail to do so and then you will be disappointed.
I don’t actually kept any expectations from anyone until you are genuinely invested in the person(for instance-family)…
Well then we hung up and went to sleep and next few days we were at relatives’ for a function and that’s an altogether another story. If you put Punjabis in a spot you can expect some different drama altogether.
People talking in loud pitch, merry making, gossiping, food, children and lots of love and warmth & that environment is so lively that even a depressed soul can come to life in that, then some relatives asking questions like – “Beta, what are you doing now-a-days?
How much do you earn? Do you have a girlfriend? Ohh who are you busy in phone with? and questions like – Why don’t you eat anything? But some are generous too…
They give you so much love and warmth and when you hear the word-“Puttar, kinna sona lagra h, Rab mehr kare” you just for a moment forget your problems. Then the food, dancing starts and everyone is happy, we have our bad days too when arguments starts but everything gets alright, actually punjabis are really chilled out, their reaction may get hyped but goes down instantly…. Well then we returned home and I didn’t have any contact with Hemant.
I had joined gym after that to get in shape bcoz my best friend who is a gym freak himself was constantly nagging me to come and i finally went with him.
Indian gay sex story of friends becoming more than friends in love
Unfortunately while I was coming out of the gym after a week with my best friend Zarun, Hemant saw me as he was outside with one of his friend. He had maybe come to check out the gym or maybe some other reason Now Zarun is 6 feet, fair, muscular and has a perfect body for anyone to drool over him but I never saw him in that way coz I befriended him long time back and his sexual side exploded after we became best friends.
Now Hemant thought that Zarun and me were dating or having fun around and I could sense it in the awkward look he gave us which was clear from his awkwardness when I introduced both of them..There was definitely a stir in the coffee cup(kind of twist)…
